I Won’t Accept Your Regrets - Chapter 11

“What?”

I was surprised at the moment.

Raymond had never visited the Empress Palace at such an early time.

I soon came to my senses and said,

“Let him in.”

Shortly after the maid went out, the door opened.  As I watched Raymond entering the room, I set an example.

“I welcome His Majesty.”

“Get up, Empress.”

He reached out as he always did.

Normally I would have stood up holding his hand and smilie, but I didn’t.

I pretended I couldn’t see his hand, so I got up and looked at him.2

Raymond looked at his empty hands and raised his eyebrows slightly.

“Your Majesty, suddenly at this hour, what are you doing in the Palace of the Empress?”

At my question, Raymond, who was looking down at me with his hands turned to me.

“……”

He didn’t answer my question and stared at me.

I thought maybe he was angry at me for ignoring his hand, but the black eyes looking at me didn’t show such a sign.

It was an indescribable complex eye glare.

Why…?

He has never seen me like that.  He never cared about me enough to feel complicated emotions.

Raymond blinked slowly. The black eyes closed eyelids their again and showed no confusion like before.

The moment I thought it was my misunderstanding, Raymond turned away from me.

“I’m going to talk to the Empress, so leave your surroundings empty.”

After all the maids retreated, Raymond opened his mouth.

“I have something to say.”

“….Yeah? At last I had something to say…. First, tell me.”

“It’s Edmond’s business.”

I’m sure the only reason you’re drawing such unseemly expressions is because of me.

“Yes. When the temple’s answer came out, I also decided to talk to you. Ray, what’s your decision?”

“I’m sorry to you, but I can’t keep him like that as long as Edmond turns out to be a royal family. Because I know better than anyone what life is like for the imperial family that is not recognized by the emperor.”

At the moment, a deep wound was seen in his dark eyes.

A member of the royal family that wasn’t recognized by the emperor..

He also knew the insults and contempt he had received, and how to know everything.

Perhaps he is projecting his past to Edmond.

But now it will all be irrelevant.

“So what is your decision?”

“I will recognize Edmond as a royal family and raise him to the First Prince of the Empire.”

That was what I expected. But why is that? Rather than being sad, My head became more frustrated.

But on the other hand, thank you.2

Until this morning, I was actually worried about lingering feelings, but now that I see him, I don’t think there will be any lingering feelings left.

I quietly laughed over him.

Raymond’s eyebrows narrowed as he felt that my laugh was not usual.

Just before he took he was about to talk, I called his name quietly,

“Ray. Seal Edmond as the First Prince, as you wish. But before that, I have something to do for me.”

“Yes, say it. Edmond’s business is over, I’ll do whatever you want. “

I’ll do whatever you want. I hope so. I didn’t want to end with him in a argument.

I smiled bitterly, looking at Raymond’s ebony eyes that seemed to contain Orion.
(Orion is a constellation 🌌)

I’ve always wanted that deep night sky-like stars to capture only me. It was not until the last time he saw me.

I stared straight at him and said calmly.1

“Let’s divorce.”6

“….What?”

At the moment, Raymond’s eyes shook violently as if he could not understand my words.

His agitation for the first time made me feel relieved for some reason.

I opened my lips to him again with a soft smile.

“I don’t want to admit Edmond, divorce me. Don’t say nonsense.”2

It was a voice of cold reproach. He seemed to think that I was trying to stop Edmond’s entry into the Imperial Household with my ‘divorce weapon’.

Yes, you might think so.

Anyone who knows me at all would obviously give me credit for my own wits, But I really want a divorce from Raymond.

And he knows how much I love him, so I already know he probably won’t believe me at first.

Just like I couldn’t believe I put the word divorce in my mouth first.

I would have been anxious at first about what to do with his cold eyes, but my heart was still quiet.

It seemed as if he was exhausted and had no energy to run for him.

“Ray, Edmond is your son. Even if I deny it, He’ll become a prince either way. I’m not talking to you about this anymore.”

“If that’s not your reason, why would you ask for a divorce?”

I dumbly said to Raymond, who was laughing unbelievably.

“The reason I decided to get married in the first place was because I loved you… and wanted to be by your side.”

“Why are you bringing that up now? Apart from Edmond, the Empress’ seat is yours. I said there wouldn’t be another woman, So just keep your spot.”2

I shouted out to him, who was trying to make his own decision.

“Because I don’t love you anymore!”3

At the moment, Raymond’s eyes shook.  And soon a suppressed voice came out.

“Ha, love? You and I are not ordinary couples. We are the Emperor and the Empress. You just want to divorce for that reason? I’d rather you be more honest with me!”3

Raymond screamed back.  A sharp look of anger was seen on his indifferent face.

Only, only if …….

My chest cooled down. For him, my heart was only just an object for him that he didn’t want.

“Ray. Do you really think there were no problems between us?”

“……”

Raymond had an angry face and then licked his lips, he couldn’t say anything.

“Thanks to Lize and Edmond. Because it gave us enlightenment about this useless relationship.”

“… it’s probably too bad for you. I understand, but we will not divorce.”

“Raymond, I……”

At my call, he turned his head as if he would not listen anymore.

“Come in!”

The Head Maid who was outside the room came in a hurry to his shout.

“Right now, order the Knights to watch the Empress Palace. After this time, everyone who comes and goes to the palace will have to receive the Queen’s entry is absolutely impossible without my permission.”7

“Raymond!”

He ended up talking unilaterally and turned away from me.

I tried to catch him, but he shook my arm away, He came to open a harsh visit and left just like that.

When he went out, Helan came in a hurry.

“Your Majesty, are you okay?”

Helan must have been very surprised because it was the first time the emperor was so angry.

” I’m okay.”

“The empress has restricted access to the palace.”

Helan carefully muttered as I watched.

I didn’t think Raymond would easily divorce, but this was a much more intense reaction than I expected.

It seemed difficult for me to change Raymond’s mind by myself.

“Helan. There is something you have to do urgently before the knights come.”

“Yeah?”

Helan’s eyes widened in my words.  I hurriedly wrote a short letter to the small table.

[I think I need my father’s help.]

She needed the power of her father, Duke Croft.

I wanted to finish quietly without my father’s help…  But I have no choice.

I handed out a letter to Helan that sealed the envelope.

“Send it to Croft Duke right now.”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

After Helan went out, I hoped the work would be completed without much fuss, and I looked out the window At Raymond’s Place, the Sun Palace.

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Returning to the Sun Palace’s office, Raymond unraveled the top button of his robe with a rough touch.

However, even when the button was released, the anger did not go away.

His throat seemed to be clogged, and He couldn’t describe it, and the anger of not knowing who he was facing was filled.

<‘Let’s divorce.’>

The moment Ellie’s calm voice echoed in his head, Raymond shook his desk hard in the midst of his boiling anger.

Sfx: thud-!

Heavy hitting sounds rang inside the office.

The assistant manager quickly dispatched the frightened servants and approached the emperor.

“Your Majesty, Calm down.”

Raymond breathed deeply at the servant’s words.

Other servants would not have dared to approach Raymond now.

However, the assistant manager was an exception to everything because Raymond was a man who had served him since the time of the Former Crown Prince, and Raymond did not hide his feelings from the assistant manager.

“You must be feeling quite tense.”

No matter how much I breathed, my stomach was burning.

What the hell is so upsetting?

Just because Ellie is wanting to divorce me….?

I never thought that she would leave me first, but even so, it was strange to be so angry.1

He didn’t have enough emotion to get overturned by her.1

It is right to think rationally rather than angry at her for mentioning divorce.+

Yeah, I was supposed to comfort her rationally, but I couldn’t.

<‘Because I don’t love you anymore!’>
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As soon as I heard the word ‘love’, I felt as if my body was twisted.

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